I think I mentioned once or twice that I wanted to make a short piece of film. A short montage of moments. So after trying to work with movie maker and making my first youtube video ever, I decided to shoot some more. Movie maker however doesn’t like me. Or anybody in that case. Simply moving one file can give you errors everywhere and after a while I decided that it just wouldn’t work. So I needed a new program to edit. And then I still needed to understand it, because there are all these functions and buttons and nicely said I am not to good at understanding digital programs. But with the help of youtube tutorials (and lowering some of my standards) I was able to make my first ever short footage clip ‘thingy’. I have no clue how to call it.
The last couple of weeks I realized a couple of things.
1. I’m not as happy as I want to be.
2. I know that circumstances haven’t been great but I need to stop letting it influence my happiness.
3. I need to change my life.
They say that life begins outside of your comfort zone. I’m not sure if it’s the full truth but it makes your life way more interesting and adventurous. It helps to grow and to experience new things that you would never have imagined you could.
Honestly, it’s like a boost in your self-esteem as well. Not so long ago I shared some new goals I wanted to work on. Not knowing that I would start so soon in realizing those goals. Last week I went to the blood bank. I get anxious from hospitals and blood. Donating half a liter scares the shit out of me. But okay, everyone told me it would be okay, it’s just the test so you only need to donate a little (4 tubes). So I brought my sister as my (mental)support and before I knew it I was in a room where a lady poked my finger and checked my pulse. Luckily, she just went for it and poked me, before I had the chance to think about it. Good news was that I could get my blood tested, bad news, I had low iron in my blood, so before being able to donate half a liter, I need to get my iron high enough. Next step, enter a room where people are donating blood as if it is just a regular thing to do. Seeing the people with their bag of blood and tubes filled with blood made me feel quite unpleasant.
Since 2018 I had a small list with my goals for 2018. I initially wanted to start another Day Zero Preoject (DZP), as I really enjoyed the last time I did that. However I only had a small list. Lately I’ve had some inspiration and I really wanted to write new goals down. Since it are still relatively small and easy goals, I will add it to my list of goals for 2018. Which you can find here. So what are my new goals?