The last couple of weeks I realized a couple of things.
1. I’m not as happy as I want to be.
2. I know that circumstances haven’t been great but I need to stop letting it influence my happiness.
3. I need to change my life.
So I tried to make a list of all the things that make me happy but I soon realized that coming up with answers was too difficult. So I tried: what made me happy. I made a start, but thinking about things that used to make me happy only made me more sad. I couldn’t enjoy any of those things. Not now at least. So I cried a lot. Talked with my sister. We came to the conclusion that we should watch the notebook and just cry some more. Realized that Netflix didn’t have the Notebook anymore. Watched Jane the Virgin instead. Realized that we had no clue where we had left and what had happened. Re-watched episodes, saw some new episodes. We took a nap, ordered pizza, realized that the day was coming to an end. And then it was time for me to bike home.
Sometimes we need to let it all out. I’m not sure how my sister felt about it, but I felt a bit better as I was biking home. The next day I was watching Muchelleb on YouTube talking about inspiring and motivating YouTubers. So I clicked on the links, to see what YouTube had to offer me. And before I knew it, I was watching the channel of Dottie James, and as I heard her speak the simple words, I am going to change my life, and you are coming with me. She had grabbed my attention. I need to change, I want to change and I will change my life.
So guys, this is where my journey begins. Because yes, lately I have had many important things on my mind, and yes I am inspired when it comes to veganism, minimalism and zero waste. But I am more than that. I am a human being and I, like everyone else want and deserve to be happy.
Please note that I am not saying that 1. I am depressed or 2. I am not happy at all. Because I have some pretty awesome people in my life and I am really grateful for many things. I am simply not as happy as I want to be, and know I can be!4 Touch the heart to give the post some love