The last couple of weeks I realized a couple of things.
1. I’m not as happy as I want to be.
2. I know that circumstances haven’t been great but I need to stop letting it influence my happiness.
3. I need to change my life.
Two years ago I saw the documentary cowspiracy. This made me think so much about my food choices, mostly concerning the effect on the environment. I began a vegetarian diet. As someone who never ate much meat anyway, this was a fairly easy step. Nevertheless I started eating meat again. This had multiple reasons, one being the pressure I put on myself. I felt so guilty when eating meat or any animal product. Additionally I felt as if I was lacking nutrients and other essentials, especially calories. I continued eating animal products, but kept reaching for alternatives most of the time.
Once again the year flew by so quickly. It’s the last month of the year and to be honest I am not ready yet for December to end.
I wrote a list of goals and as the year went by I changes some and I added more. It’s good to update your goals, however looking at my 2017-2018 goal list it seems as if I failed pretty hard. Looking back at all the things that happened this year I must say I am really happy!
Of course I went trough some shitty things/moments/’experiences’ but overall a lot of good things happened. I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t make a list out of them (or at least the ones I recall at the moment).
I thought i had a good outlook on the time. But last minute I remembered that the road was still closed so I had to take a little detour. And it was also still cold en not every path would be free of snow, another couple extra minutes. So I still ended up hurrying a bit. Running late as I always seem to do, I still took time to check the mailbox. And on top of unwanted mail there was one letter, addressed to me. First person who I could think of sending me a Christmas letter did not match the handwriting, although the writing looked familiar. Half busy getting my bike i inspected the envelope a bit better and identified the sender. A big smile appeared on my face but I reminded myself I was in a hurry. In a millisecond I decided to put the card in my jacket and open it at my destination.